Then, when I grew up :), school supplies meant it was time to meet my very own class full of kids and love on them with all my heart. I loved watching the kiddos set up their desks every year. The joy in their faces made me one happy teacher. School supplies were part of my true passion.
Now, school supplies make me have a yucky feeling in my tummy. I always get teary eyed walking through the aisles missing my job and the kids that made quite a difference in my life! This may not be normal, but it's what I struggle with! Trent and I were unpacking the final boxes last week and one of my teacher bins had broken during the move. I grabbed another bin to transfer the items and tears started falling. Trent knew exactly. I thought I was doing better! :(
So, today I am making a promise to myself. Next time I see those bright yellow boxes of crayons, I am going to remember that I am still a teacher at heart. I'm going to realize that I'm a stay at home mom now and that's ok to say! I have an identity, I have my own little student, and I am smart. I'm thankful for my new job and I will live vicariously through my sweet friends who do teach. They are the best and I am so thankful that we've kept the friendships we have and SO thankful that they let me help out in their classrooms. xo
What do school supplies mean to you??
school supplies mean that i'll have to start waking up early soon :)
ReplyDeleteyou're a great teacher - collins is lucky to have you as his teacher all to himself! :)
So, I've never commented before and feel a bit like a creepy blog stalker, but I read your blog and I just had to tell you I feel the exact same way as you about school supplies and struggling with my identity as a teacher vs. stay-at-home-mom. It's probably only something other teachers turned stay-at-home-moms can truly understand. This time of year especially, I feel that yearning to be back in the classroom, but then I think about how much I also love being home with Olivia and know that I can't do both things. I figure she'll only be little for a while and I can always get back to teaching when she heads to school. Just wanted to let you know you're not alone. Makes me feel better to know that someone else is struggling with the same feelings I am. :)
ReplyDelete:) you are welcome in my room anytime!!
ReplyDeleteit's so funny how we all think. i have guilt that my title is working-mom instead of stay-at-home-mom :)